I got a bit of a shock on Sunday when I weighed in, as I'd actually gained 3 pounds, meaning I now weigh 21 stone.
This obviously puts me above where I've been since my supposed recent push to try to lose a bit more weight. It also means I'm heavier than I have been for quite a while.
I have a few excuses, but the honest truth is I've lost my way a bit. I've been feeling rather down if I'm honest - looking for a new job hasn't resulted in anything, even when I changed my "search parameters" to loosen them up.
I've had a fair few interviews, but no real sniffs of a job. I actually went to an interview on Tuesday (it was one I was contacted about before I stopped for Canada, but has taken ages to result in interviews).
I think it went well as an interview - certainly better than most of the others I've had; however, I don't think I'm quite what they were looking for. I'm therefore anticipating that there will be someone with more relevant experience that they will interview (I was first). In fact, they may have let the cat out of the bag in that they have a temp covering for someone who was on maternity and then left, so I wouldn't be surprised if really that person will get the job.
The honest truth, though, is if they offered me a job I'm not sure I would want to take it. I mentioned above that I'd widened the parameters, but I think really in my heart of hearts I don't think I want to stay in this sector (it's quite difficult to explain as I can't really say properly!).
I've actually now stopped all of the automated search e-mails and turned my CV "off" on the job websites. Once I'm back from Canada I'll fire it all back up again and go back to looking outside of my current sector. Trouble is I'm really not enjoying working at my current place any more, which is why I loosened things up in the first place, to try to get something to happen quickly.
Either way, my current focus is to get real on the diet - I can't have a situation where even my old clothes don't fit me because I've put on weight! I mean at the very least it would be ruinously expensive to have to buy everything in bigger sizes again!